Have you been betrayed in the past? How?

Yes! So many times… but the one betrayal that I wasn’t expecting happened three years ago. I haven’t exactly had an easy time in my life, and I hate talking about my problems because it makes me seems vulnerable. But, I confided in my best friend [at the time]. I told her stories about my past, my current life… my pain. And, you know, I was surprised she stuck around after I told her my stories. Usually people just distance themselves because it makes them uncomfortable. But there was a reason she stuck around. I should have known.

One day I found out she’d been using my stories, my past, to get sympathy. Like, the things I told her had happened to me, she’d talk to someone and say they happened to her. I was so mad. It made me feel like a freak. Even though no one knew they were MY life stories, just hearing people talk about it made me feel sick. Seeing her get so much sympathy made me want to die. Where was the sympathy for me when I talked to people? Why didn’t I ever get any? Everywhere I went, where there were people who knew her, I could hear the whispers. And I know they never realized whose life they were really talking about, but I spent so much time being careful and not talking to anyone about my life that hearing this everywhere was horrible. 

I felt like she was mocking me, taking my experiences for one big fat joke. Well, it wasn’t funny. I hope it was worth it. 

As if that wasn’t bad enough, she ended up sleeping with my best guy friend at the time and that ruined the relationship I had with him. She had been using my life to get his sympathy and love. Her attitude also had an affect on the relationship I had with another guy. I was played.

I never want to go through that. Ever again. I guess it would have never happened if I hadn’t been so set on keeping an aura of mystery about me, but I was never expecting that to happen.